Ron, Ronnie, Rorey ;)

so i dont update this ever.... www.myspace.com/rooski729.... anywho...

so i lied...the addy is:

R. Brown
605 Bryan Apt 1R
Peoria, Il 61603

have a merry x mas all!

309 224 5621 if u wanna drop me a line! ;)

So, today im finally moving.... robb and i's new addy is:

Ron(nie) Brown
605 Bryan St. Apt. 2 (subject to change ;) )
Peoria, IL. 61603.


*Look for details for an up and coming Martini/Cocktail party. ;)

<3 Ronnie <3

well, its thanksgiving...here i sit.... feelin' a lil worn from last nite....went out in canton to the bowling alley and tripps....was kinda nice to see everyone from high school and such...see that my life kinda rocks compared to theirs, but kinda sad at the same time...i wish i could see some of them longer, or sober, or just more often...i really miss some of them....even talked to some that i thought it would be hard to talk to...but it was nice... also, last nite i went and saw RENT w/ carrie...bumped into brandi and bob...nice to see them...then it was off to dinner at Remy and Matts w/ jacob and carrie....soooo fucking goooodddd.... omg it was terriffic...that boy just needs to be my personal chef. haha.... today is lunch/dinner w/ the fam., then off to peoria to see my boys... so it should be a good nite....esp. if my lil icelander graces my prescence...heeh...well happy t giving to all... muah muah and muahhhhhhh

*wow...what a year can do..... i cant belive i have been out of the closet for nearly 2 years now.... oh how things have changed... i just read all of my past enteries back from janurary... i dont even feel like that same person.... i was kinda out of control... i mean... i didnt even know who i was or what i wanted...switching from random boy to boy...thinking that that gave 2 shits about me for more than 2 months..haha... now im all about myself...improving my own life..and getting what i want.... here i sit, at graham hospital school of nursing...typing this.... a senior in college...getting ready to be done with my 7th semester, and soon on to my last.... and graduating nearly 6 months away from today...and be an RN...wow...it just shocks me.... i mean..REALLLLL responsiblity of peoples' lives, of medications, no teachers watching, not a student anymore....gradschool.... ahhhhh...RENT, BILLS, INCOME!!!! its all overwhelming.... Soon, I will be appartment shopping.... and furniture shopping.... I cant wait.... May 21 is the big move to Chicago day.... Im just flooded w/ emotions right now... of how to feel, what to think.... I want to work, settle down....but still be young, hip, and fun.... I want to succeed...be envyed...but still be Ronnie... I want to be beautiful...but still down to earth....
*Looking back on those old posts i learned a lot about myself.... about my drinking habits and party habits.... I mean..im all about having a good time...but wow, can we say a lil out of control? haha...i guess that im mild compared to many people..but still.. i have matured a ton since then... im not that twinky little bitch that i was then...Im new...
*Im ready for adventure...ready for excitement.... ready for change... Peoria can no longer house me... Im trapped and want out... Its like... I can feel my parol date just around the corner...but there is still so much left to do before it gets here... There are so many things i need to accomplish before the time comes.... i.e. saving money, graduating, passing boards, buying a blackberry, more sophisticated wardrobe, cutting ties w/ people, helping my parents prepare to move, graduation speech, class funraising,,,,etc.... Im open to help with any of the forementioned items ;).... well i guess i should go for now...this prolly wont make much sense bc i have been at school since 745 am doing flu shots...and writing a paper since 12...so this was my "break"....back to work now i suppose... hope u all are well...love and hugs always...

**** ronnie ***

Wow, so it has been forever since i updated...I had an excellent summer. I worked in surgery agian...learned a TON of new skills. I also was recently hired on as a Nurse Intern starting at the end of august at Methodist Hopsital Emergency Room in Peoria!!! SO, things seem to really be getting rolling for me!!! I started school Monday for orientation week. It was really nice greeting all of the new students and making them feel welcome; it's almost like a second christmas for me... LOL. So, I also finally turned the big 21!!!!! FINALLYY!!!!!! It was a really nice party. Thanks to everyone who made it amazing. Def. smoked and drank wayyyy too much. But anywho, I have school in like 30 minutes today for Education Day of GH. SO, that should be a bust. I hope everyone is well, and doing great in their lives. I know that mine is finally goin where I want it to.... I just feel so, empowered. YAY. Kisses to most of you! ;) love always,

*ronnie*

sooooo i havent updated in foreeverrrrrrrr.... everything is GREAT!!!! Lets see, got straight A's for this semester again...amazingly as much slacking as i did, I was still able to manage it...lol.... new job working in surgery full time... the money is great, the hours rule, and the staff is wonderful....PERFECT....oh yeah.... i have an AMAZING BF now toooooo!!!! he is pretty much incredible.... his name is nathan, 24 from peoria.... he is cute as hell, nice, fun to be with, has a great dog, and cat, and is totally in to me too! he and my andy wandy came to ptown last nite and met the P's....it was fun.... we ended up drunk out on the pourch with allison, carrie, jen, jacey, and kristen...it was nice to see those girls (they should have drank more ;) ) thennnnnn, we went to good ole' elm street diner...it was a hoot... all the bar trash was stumblin in....it basically made my nite... LoL... well tonite it is off to c st, which is typically a bust...but i need to go out and i cant really do that in p town for awhile... megan said she might come tontie...so we shall see.... hopefully it will be decent... i guess that is all for now kids...shaylani OUTTTT, buhbuh!

so this weekend wasnt a TOTALLLL bust..but it was a lil bit of one...haha. Friday was a blast...went to c/u...had a date...it was bustish... saw a fashion show and went to c st...got to see my lindzzzz...it was grand....headed back for p town w/ andy sat morn....came home, napped, relaxed...met up w/ carrie, tony, phil, britt, adam, and andy and went to dinner at RED ZIN...it was goooood... 7 ppl, three bottles of wine, PERFECT! lol..then it was off to elbo room to sing....met a hot singer named KERIANNE,...she is my new kerokee partner ;)....then it was off to dv8... another 7 long islands later, shirt off on the bar, and andy no wehre to be found..i relized i had been left... lol ... found my way back to andys...i was N.A. (not amused) and then passed out on his couch...left sun. morn. to be back for a group meeting at school...was on the way... when CRASH.... i was in a car accident.... some lady plowed me as i was trurning left.... she spun me around in the intersection...i bashed my head on the window and got a burn on my neck from my seatblet...but that was bout it.... daddys car is now a bust.... oh well..mabye he will buy a hot new one now...lol.... todya sucked...woke up late for school..had class for almost 7 hours...then left...was extrememly irratated at my group....and had a bitch fit. tomorrow i have to teach 3 y.o. how to call 9-1-1...so grand...bust...well i shoudl go.... im gettin depressed now. haha..lata

ronnie

bust ... buh buh.. so wastdd.hahahha

well this weekend could not officially any worse.... thurs started out great...went out w/ the bois to dv8 and had a BLAST...friday morning..woke up, went to b-fast w/ andy...then the busts started occuring.... Bust 1.) parking ticket for overtime on a meter, 2.) i found out friday afternoon a good friend from peoria shot himself in the head and killed himself, 3.) the guy i reallyyyyy likes b day was sat...couldnt call him or talk to him b/c of work, plans etc....told me he messed around w/ someone else on friday nite and had him spend the nite... 4.) working all weekend from 445am - 1 pm.... so yeah... that really rules...i think i just want to bash my head into a wall....cant wait to see what tomorrow holds in store for me...all my luck ill prolly fall and break my hip. i hate the world, i hate bois, i hate everything...i just feel so alone..and i really dont have a person in the world who cares...all i have wanted since friday was a hug...guess how many i have had.... 0..... hot eh.... im going to bed.... i dont knwo if i can do work in the am.... but i better...oh god... i just need something. =(

oh what a weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was great and wonderful and perfect...and a well needed lil break... So, i worked friday 6 am till 2 pm..then headed home, cleaned up, and then headed to chicago to meet my future husband, neil. lol.... so traffic wasnt bad till i got about 35 miles from the loop....and then it got a lil congested...but not super bad....well then i was following his directions and accidently missed the one last exit before lake shore drive..that i was supposed to take.... i was like shit....b/c i have never drivin in actual chicago..just to midway airport...and i was on the fone w/ neil gettin directions...he was just like... yeah ur def gonna have to drive downtown now...i was like...shit..heheh...well when all was said and done i tackled downtown chicago at 6:30 pm on a friday driving down STATE, MICHIGAN, and WACKER.....and still managed to survive it all.... i was QUITE proud of myself....so i finally got to rush hospital near uic where i was parking...and i had to pee sooooo bad...like since before the loop traffic got badd.... but there was no where for me to stop...so i just held it.. and then peeded STAT when i got there.... well then i met neil...and he was beautiful, and dark, and hot, and just pretty....so we went back to his condo where we dropped off my stuff and got ready to go to boistown for my first time...and for dinner and such...so we went and drove for about 20 min looking for parking :( and then finally found a spot..and went to a lil chineese/japanese restraunt called PING PONG...it was soooo cute/retro/fun.... i ordered the generals chicken and neil had something good too...and for appetizer we had sushi..... during dinner i managed to polish off 3/4 a bottle of wine on my own...and was feeling quite good, so we decided to try to get me into the boistown bars....w/ my fake....and it was soooo easy. lol.... so i drank a few more beers and felt good.... lol..then we met up w/ some of neils friends at gentry...and the piano lounge player totally made fun of me during his song... then said i was cute...gave me a wink, and wave..etc..it was greatness... then we decided to go back to neils to conclude the evening...went to be at 6 am...woke up at 9 am...showered, etc....and went back to boistown...i bought so cuteeeee undies at hot bois for $40.... and then we had lunch at a mexican restruant...and then it was back to uic to drop me off at my car :( i took some cute pics of us..and then it was time for me to go to champ/bana.... it was so sad leaving..but it was a great experience b/c it makes me just that much more excited for next may when i move there for grad school....

SOOOO....

Then it was off to C/U for studio 54 nite!!! looked hotttttt and took pics..so if anyone wants to see..just ask!.... it was a blasttttt i met soooo many fun ppl ...got to see my hot hag lindz, and jerome, and heath, and some ppl i m not so fond of...got body paint on the $40 undies...kinda stained them...but eh.... drank soooo much (6 mikes, 2 bicardi, 2 red bull and vodka, 4 beers, and shots).... there were some hot bois there..but not too many that i was that impressed... chicago is sooo much better....i love the atmosphere and how i was treated there....why cant 12 months just fly by?!?!? LOL. well the nite ended w/ me going back to jeromes and staying w/ him, phil, and jeromes buddy that i dont know....and eating pizza, passing out at 6 am and waking up at 845 am for no reason....no hangover though..so that was good.... ;) woke phil up and we went back to my friend brad's (beer) to get arbys and play some games w/ coop and becky...it was fun...then it was back to canton for my bust of an ass to do so hw and pass out....

CONCLUSION:

500 miles, 2 days, hottttt future husband ;) , first time in bois town, too much alcohol, new undies, and finally seeing what my life is going to be like soonly.... WONDERFUL! heheheheh

ohhhh it is great to know my life is going to good directions.... *eep*

lata gatas! *ronnie*

Do you see me?

Do you feel me like i feel you?

Call your number

I cannot get through

You dont hear me

I dont understand

WHen I rech out

I dont find your hand

Were they wasted words

Did tehy mean a thing

All this precious time

But I still feel so inbetween

Chours: Someday

I just keep pretending

Youll stay

Dreaming of a different ending

I wanna hold on

But it hurts so bad

I cant keep

SOmething that i never had

I keep telling myself

Things can turn around with time

And if I wait it out

You could always change your mind

Like a book I read

WHere it works out in the end

Cant I close my eyes

Have you lying here again

THen I come back down

THen i fade back in

Then I realize

Its just what might have been

CHORUS

Am I a shadow on your wall

Am I anything at all

ANything to you

Am I a secret that you keep

Do you dream me while your sleeping after all?

--L. Lohan

bust! hahah... i went to DV8 last nite in ptown..it was HAWT!!!! I met some really nice people...im so glad andy talked me into going....i mean..i love my c/u family...but i really needed a break from all of that. I met a really great guy there last nite too. his name was silas. he is really cute, 6'4, 25 y.o., college grad, and has goals and aspirations, which is really nice. we danced the from liek 12-4 am..and in the course of 1 hr. i had like 4 long island iced teas...it was fun....then andy, mike, nick, silas, and i all went back to andy's and hungout.... it was greatness.... silas is such a tall boi..i felt so little. lol.... anyways...we woke up this am.... hungover as hell..and i wanted steak-n-shake..but that was a bust...so we went and had the indian buffet...it was OK tasting..but not so nice to me afterwards. hahahahah.... we all were a lil ill afterwards...oh well.... well my spring break is officially over. :( sooooo sad..all in all it was a good break, minus a few parts....but oh well.... im looking forward to new beginnings all over in my life right now...new bois, new rotation, new season...new....ronnnie. :) lata luva's

*ronnie* ;)

so i got a new icon, and i personally find it very hawt! anways, im gettin ready to go to the doc, then off to clifton to see my boi for spring break. i think im gonna go into chicago for a lil while this week too... hopefull i will get to see some of u all over break. im so glad my ob rotation is over, and yes, i even managed to get an A on it! and the teach loved me, which ruled. but then agian...who dont love ronnie ;) lol, jk. well i hope everyone has an AMAZING spring break, and hope that we can all hang! miss u all! as for me im outtie. love u all.
muah!
*ronnie*

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new pics of the weekend!!! of mattie boi and i...checkem out! p.s. hope u like the marilyn shirt!!!! :) love ronnie

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What a depressing Valentine's day...i got the highest grade in the class on my OB test, the bad new...it was only a 77.5%....I watched The Notebook, bad news...i watched it w/ my parents..... I got to hear Matt's voice....bad news.... it was only on the phone :( Grrr... it just depresses me that i have the best boyfriend imaginable, but he is 100 miles away.... *sighs* for now i guess i will just eat my popcorn and make so arrangements for the boi this weekend :) OB clinicals at 0700 in peoria tomorrow: BUST! happy v - day all, hugs and kisses, ronnie :)

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Ok...so this officially was the BEST weekend of my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It all started w/ friday nite...I got off at 7.30 b/c we were overstaffed...so I decided after much drama to go to B/N and hangout w/ dusty and beata...it was fun... went to dinner etc....Then sat. morning dust and i went to the mall and he bought shoes then to wendy's for lunch...then it was off to chicago for the BIG DATE! so i got to where we were meeting and i was SOOOO nervous and excited...so i called b/c he was at work..and he came out to meet me...and i was just like AWWWWEEEE and breathed a HUGE sigh of relief.... From then on out it was WONDERFUCKINFUL.... i went to matt's house so he could take a shower and get ready....and i met his dog, ZOE, and acutally the rest of his family too...they were pretty nice for the first meeting, so that was a relief as well..... after matt was ready, we drove to kankakee to where we were staying then to the train station... Sooo we took the train to Michigan Ave. and got off there and went to H&M where guess who was there MEGANNNNNNN!!!! yay...i was sooo excited... so..i bought some HOTTTT undies there and got checked out by megs friend brent....but ehhh...so then meg and i shared half a cig on mich ave..and departed :( next, we were on the subway again and off to dinner @ MOD.... YAY... we got checked out a few times b/c we looked so good which was nice and made me feel good to be w/ matt @ that time....so then we got to MOD for dinner..and matt said he LOVED the place and was sooooo happy that i picked it... I had the swordfish and he had chicken...then we spilt a creme brulee dessert and cotton candy. It was sooo romantic.... we sat next to one another and just gazed in each others eyes...i felt so connected to that boi like w/ none before... we had SOOO much in common it was almost unreal....the whole time i just wanted to make out w/ him right there (but i held back ;) ). soooo after dinner we went back to the train station to catch it back to Kankakee. the ride back was nice too...we talked the wholeeee way back...and even were like holding hands, rubbing legs, etc right there on the train...i sooo didnt care... i felt like the happiest boi on earth. SO... we went back to kankakee and and started talking etc.... it was nice...then i modeled my new undies ;) hehe....time rolled on...and it was WONDERFUL...lol...so then we were hungry again and decided we needed milk shakes from steak n shake...so we weent in our PJs and got some. then we went back, and went to sleep...this am was fun too... we "talked" somemore.... and then went to the mall and met up w/ matt's best gf brittney...she was soo pretty.... and nice... and i recieved approval from her ;) lol.... then went back to matt's and chilled for awile and then had to go home.... i gave him the cd i made for him and he loved it...it was crazy how many of the songs he already had b/c of our similar musical styles.... then he gave me FLOWERS!!!! and i melted (lol, i melt for no one ;) ) Then..it was 3pm and i had to depart :( it was horrible leaving him...i just wanted to be there and stay in his arms forever... luckily he let me borrow his RENT and Jesse McCartney cd's to listen to on the way home :)...so i called him when i got home...and talked online...and discussed how much fun we both had...and how it was both of our BEST DATES EVERRRRR!!! soooo i think it is offical...he is my BF!!! he is all i want... i know it is crazy and seems soooo fast...but omg..this kid is amazing... im seeing him this thur-fri in B.n. at dustys then he will be here the weekend of the 18th...and u all WILL be meeting him....it has been determined... lol... now it is back to canton to do hw...and school..... blah... but i need to go for now... later all....luv ronnie :)